I have missed you. Truly and deeply. I admit, ours is an unbalanced relationship. I use you. Thoroughly and not always in the most fair of ways. That I admit. But the world is cruel and mostly boring stuck in an office. A girl needs an outlet- that is where you fit in.
Dear blog. I have kept my deep dark secrets to myself. But I do give you hints as to how my heart bends. Only you know how deeply the love messes with me. Twists me inside out, until I want to bleed for a little relief. Then the sun comes up and his limbs are all tangled up with mine. How can it be anything but divine will?
You know how silly I can be. Easily hurt, but I throw back the knives just as hard. A true brat through and through. Yet my friends still like me. It irks me sometimes how they act as if they did not know that side of me. How I ask. They better than my family and lover, know the brat. I get it, I am too much for myself as well. Sometimes.
I neglect you, when I should nurture you. Let’s catch up. I am to be wed to the love of my life. How trippy is that? It sounds warped even as I write it. Ah, but it is so true. You should see the ring. In that ring lies the trick to my betrothed. Somehow he knows me at my most basic level. It’s simple and complicated- but never at the same time. I am happy- truly, all round happy. Work is better than before- a huge make-over will happen. But it is good. I hate my wardrobe. I shop with fear- I need to be fearless about my style. I feel nondescript in my clothes. It helps that I like my body or it would be a disaster. That I am definitely going to totally change.
Till next time- sweet blog. I promise to be deep. Maybe even funny.
Be good!
